Things have definitely taken a difficult turn for us in the last few days. Starting Wednesday I was officially placed on bed rest, as of right now I am not sure for how long but I will find out on Monday. It is really difficult when you go from being so active to not being able to do anything. I hate depending on others for things but at this point I do not have much of a choice. I went into my doctor’s office that afternoon for swelling. To me this did not seem like normal pregnancy swelling, I felt like something was not right. My doctor took one look at my feet and hands and said you need to go to the hospital for some testing. At the time I did not think much of it because they had done so many tests on me before that had come back negative. So i was taken down to the NST unit (non stress testing) and placed on monitors. One thing I know for sure is no matter how many things I am going through our lil man is going to be a strong baby. The doctor said his heartbeat is so strong and his movement is always in full swing. So of course he passed all of his tests including his fluid check. So at this point I felt like I could breathe knowing he was ok. Well when I got there they also took samples of my blood, and it turns out that I have Toxemia. At first when I was told that, I really had no idea what it was I just knew that it was serious. From there I was told I would be coming to the hospital 2 times a weeks to be monitored and for them to do ultrasounds. Oh yippee more hospital time, as if they don’t know me by name there already. Here is the funny part, I was super hydrated, well at least I finally managed to get that right 200 ounces a day later.
Ok, I thought to myself, everything is going to be fine. I have always placed it all in God’s hands and I have to continue to do so now. I am definitely scared but I have faith that everything happens for a reason. I am not sure of the reason, but who am I to question it.
So far it has been a few days, and I am honestly bored out of my mind. I am pretty sure if Ben did not work from home I would go crazy. Everyone has been so supportive and I know I just have to push through, because it will all be worth it when we get to hold our beautiful baby boy.
Our lil guy will be full term on Sept 1st, so I am just praying he holds out until then so I know he will be as healthy as he can be. If he has to come earlier, we will deal with that as well.
Even though I will be sitting in a chair all day I still have a baby shower to look forward to tomorrow. I can’t wait to see what my mom , Beth and Brandi have come up with. I know it is going to be amazing.
I am so thankful for everyone that is in our lives! 
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Aug 08 2009